Overwhelmed

Okay, okay...I think I have to update this thing. It's been awhile since my last post and I am sorry if people wanted more.

I have been a bit overwhelmed. That might not be the right word, maybe a bit understated. I have started school...again. I have been accepted into a Physical Therapy Assistant program and there is a lot that is involved in the learning process and rushed in the beginning. Even the professors have said so and when they say that you know that the students will be a "bit" rushed and such. I have been thankfully treading water with some minor sinking moments but all is well (she said with her fingers crossed behind her back).

The minor sinking moment was that I had to do a practical ("hands on") check off last week, since it was the first one of my new student career I was definitely anxious and nervous and didn't really know what to expect. When it came to my turn to show the teacher that I could perform what we just learn I spaced out. utterly and completely. I couldn't remember part of what I should do! The teacher kept asking me questions (i think to try to help me...) but it made me even more flusterd and upset. Of course I failed that attempt...fortunately everyone is able to have two more tries to pass. Then I try my attempt a second time and I went to measure the joints I needed to measure (range of motion) and I had to measure the fingers and assumed I just needed to do one finger (to show i could measure fingers) but most people have five and I failed that attempt. SO on my last attempt I was able to pass and move on in the class. Whew!

I don't know why I such a problem last week because my check off this week went with flying colors! It's so typical of me. Not consistent. But hopefully this will be more consistent from here on out. Wish me luck!

So anyways, that's what is so exciting in my life right now. Well, maybe not exciting to everyone but it was to me.

Loves!
So wish me luck!

Birthday Wishes

One year older and wiser too! Happy Birthday to you! Or rather ME! Yeah, I just got another year old this week. It was a good day, I took myself out see a matinee and then dinner. Although, I did have to work that afternoon, I didn't really matter. As I get older I have realized that my birthday isn't about getting things (or lots of things) or having a big party, if I have a good day I am content. It's funny how our perspectives change as we get older, at least mine did anyway. But money is still always good....but that's another can of worms...let's not get into that.

27 yrs seems to be good to me! (so far...)

Loves!

It's My Party....

I finally had a housewarming party, or I should say 'apartmentwarming'. It was a really hectic trying to prepare for it; like all the cleaning, getting the food ready...etc. I really don't know why I fussed so much, but I like being prepared for things like that. It wasn't like my apartment was filthy and such, but I like to know that my guests were sitting in a clean area. Anyways. What was really funny was that I was actually late to my own party! Yeah, I know, super lame. I was planning to leave work early (i needed to pick up one more thing) and arrive home before people got there but of course, one more person had to show up to work out 30 minutes before closing (nobody had shown up in awhile), frustrating as that was, and being the nice person I am, I let them work out. Then, of course, being in a rush, I caught ALL the red lights and was behind the slowest drivers in the world. I mean these drivers were actually under the speed limit! Geez louise! Anyway, I was about 20 minutes late for my own party. But thank goodness nothing else bad happened. I just was happy anyone showed up. cue the music....maybe now I can 'cry if i want to'.

April Showers Bring May Flowers

One of my favorite smells is rain. Recently it has been raining quite a bit. So, needless to say, I have been in a good mood. Other people have been complaining about the weather but I actually am one of the strange ones that enjoy it. With the wet weather brings the cool tempuratures that I thrive in. Not to hot, not to cold. Cool weather. Illinois summers brings lots of heat and lots of humidity. So I am not looking forward to it. Yay for favorite smells!

Craziness!

I have decided that being driven to craziness is going to be a never ending story in my life. Let me tell you why. I usually love my extended family, they are generally sane and fun and gracious and what not. Except for the ones I'm living with now (which will remain unnamed). They are driving me nuts! I knew something wasn't right with this one step-relative, but I didn't know the extent of it until I moved in and was living with it on a daily basis. Lets face it; living with someone that has a serious but treatable mental illness that they won't recognize and treat can wear a 'normal' person down. I'm just sick and tired of walking on eggshells around this person; not knowing how this person will react to whatever I do or say. Grrrr! Needless to say, I will be moving out on my own fairly quickly. (like within the next week, yay!) The only good thing that has come of this is that my cousin (their son/stepson) has moved back in and he and I can vent and stay sane and normal together.

On the other hand, on the upside of crazy...I have recieved some very exciting news! I have been accepted into the Physical Therapy Assistant Program I applied for! Yay! I will be starting in the fall and everything will look better once I get started. I love when things go right!

Loves!

B.A.S.S. Fish

Okay, I have to explain the title a little bit. In my life I have not had much experience when it comes to guys and dating. To this day I can count all my dates on one hand (pathetic i know). At one point I was so frustrated with things that I voiced my thoughts on the subject to my then college roommates. We came to the conclusion that Boys Are So Stupid! My roommate and I needed MEN in our lives and that there must be other Fish in the sea! So if you figured it out that the title is an acronym for how my roommate and I felt about the opposite gender.

So the million dollar question is...where have all the available men gone? All the ones that I have ever liked/crushed on/adored, have all gotten themselves married to someone else. Granted I might not be the rod thin supermodel or drop dead gorgeous blonde bombshell, why can't just one tall, dark and handsome just adore me? It's all about me right?

(sigh) I guess I have to settle for a four-legged, golden retriever, named Rex. No matter how many times he tries to "kiss" me that he isn't going to magically change into some handsome prince. (i've tried to tell him many times that he isn't a frog either, hee-hee). Rex's owners giggle every time I try to say that.

Oh well. Someday my prince will come.

Tornados and Internet Cafes

I have settled in my new "home". Yup, Illinois has to watch out because I am here to stay, for a long while anyway, who knows. I have safely moved from Virginia without incident. Which can be a very good thing. I like good adventures, but smooth ones. I actually made the trip in one day, which made my trip a whirlwind one! One cold morning and 13 hours later I pulled into where the tornado has landed me. I can say it was a good landing.

I have to say, right now I am doing something that I thought I would never be doing. I am actually at an 'internet cafe' using my computer and internet. It's a very unique experience. I like the privacy of using my computer at home, but this has helped me see it in a new way. It makes me ponder a little bit. It's hard not to do anything illegal on the computer while using it in public. I wouldn't use my technology in any illegal way whatsoever anyway in public or in private. But it seems to me that the dark and dirty ways that good and wonderful technology can be used is a very private/secret thing. No wonder more bad things happen at home and in private to very good people. So no wonder it is a good idea to use technology out in the open whether it be in an often trafficed room at home or 'internet cafes'. I have always wondered what makes people do what they do. With my mentality and personality it is hard for me to understand the uttermost dark sides of people. I know it happens, I know we have to deal with it and help heal from the outcomes but it is just urksome to me. grrr!

(okay, i have now stepped off the box)